it is November right now...
first of all.... i finished my SPM...
i got my result ... a so so result
after that, i started to think about the field i should futher my study...
and finally... i chose to be an obedient child, listen to what my parents said...
and thus, i took form 6...
but everythings didn't seem smooth on me...
i tried my best indeed to pass through all those obstacles..
but finally, i failed...i lose to myself
perhaps im not as tough as i thought...
well, since i quit my form6 school life, i do nothing at home everyday...
the things i did is watched movie, onlined, slept, ate....
but then, my uncle offer me a job at his shop...
i accepted it as well....
wat i done in the shop during this period of time was only watched movie, read some novels, gaming and lastly, sales...
i pass through this kind of meaningless life since i quit f6...
u know wat...
i scared of people asking wat m i studying now...
i scared of people asking m i having holidays now...
i scared of people asking me about the reasons i quit f6...
i scared of people asking me where im studying now...
i scared of people asking me why im working at the shop now...
but unfortunately, they all donno...
nobody know what's my feeling...
everytime i can just answered them : oh...nope..i vil start my class in january
and for sure, they will asked u back why its so late...
gosh... do u know tat this kind of questions always killed me within five second ...
well, tat's KP...i know..
today, 4th of november 2009 will be my last day working at here...
i will be bzzz after this...so...i have to quit my job ...
i live in these kind of meaningless and useless life for 1 year...
doubtless, i won't get comfortable when i start my class again i know...
nothing goes bravo on me
every circumstances go against me everytime...
even though my parents, my frens don't say anything on me..
but i know...
i know wat r u all thinking of me....
useless... powerless...meaningless...headache...n etc...
i hope everything can back to zero... go back to spm...
at least my life is full of colour tat time...
Lord,
do u c me?...
do u still remember me?...
have u ever noticed about me?..
there's a girl need your bless always.
please don't be mean to that girl... give her some hints please... she need You..
Now is a good time for a miracle.
Lord,are you hearing?
Hopelessly waiting for good times.
im standing at the edge of my life...save me anyone?
